So I write this blog feeling all over the place. For me, 2010 literally personified the beginning of Charles Dicken’s epic novel, A Tale of Two Cities.
“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way–“
On one hand, I finally got to marry my dream man after 4 years of living with and loving him. Our wedding was a perfect party and I had the best time. I am a Willison now and I feel ready to start the new chapter in my life of family, babies and selflessness.
On the other hand, I left my dream job of 8 years with a disappointed heart and fractured loyalty and spent the last couple of months searching for professional meaning. At 31, I felt average and as much as I told myself better things were to come, I couldn’t quite absorb and believe it.
One doesn’t want to think their job defines them but when you find yourself idle you realize in some respects it did. Having had time to reflect on where I was, who I had become and what I had to offer was humbling and difficult.
Again like Dickens wrote though, it was necessary and inspiring. When a forest burns down to the ground, new life springs forth. Ideas, creativity, dedication, passion and growth are now ignited and re-aligned. Change is good even though change is hard.
As the clock hits midnight, I will not only be starting a new year but also a new job and feel blessed to have the opportunity.
For those of you who may find yourself in a similar situation remember your “double rainbow” (sorry had to) is coming but you have to fight for it. Persistence is your final answer.
Luella says…New Year, New You.
Below are some inspiring words and songs for new beginnings that inspired me during my difficult moments.
There is no place to go but up. Keep on trying and always, always, always believe in yourself.
F***IN PERFECT by Pink
“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.”– T.S. Eliot
RADIOACTIVE by Kings of Leon
Entrance
By Rainer Maria Rilke (translated by Dana Gioia)
Whoever you are, step out of doors tonight,
out of the room that lets you feel secure.
Infinity is open to your sight. Whoever you are.
With eyes that have forgotten how to see from viewing things already too well-known,
lift up into the dark a huge, black tree and put it in the heavens: tall, alone.
And you have made the world and all you see. It ripens like the words still in your mouth.
And when at last you comprehend its truth, then close your eyes and gently set it free.
JAR OF HEARTS by Christina Perri
A New Start
by Bernard Shaw
I have wiped the slate clean,
No more reminders from the past.
Memories of what I have been,
Have vanished at long last.
I look forward to my future new,
Where all is territory strange.
Soon I will be among the few,
That plans their life at long range.
I see my life laid out at my feet,
New friends shall rally at my call.
They will be the first I will greet,
At this my welcoming ball.
Soon all memories will depart,
Of a past left well behind.
I will get off to a new start,
With the best of mankind.
Eminem I’M GOING THROUGH CHANGES
New Beginning
The whole world’s broke and it ain’t worth fixing
It’s time to start all over, make a new beginning
There’s too much pain, too much suffering
Let’s resolve to start all over make a new beginning
Now don’t get me wrong I love life and living
But when you wake up and look around at everything that’s going down
All wrong
You see we need to change it now, this world with too few happy endings
We can resolve to start all over make a new beginning
The world is broken into fragments and pieces
That once were joined together in a unified whole
But now too many stand alone There’s too much separation
We can resolve to come together in the new beginning
We can break the cycle – We can break the chain
We can start all over – In the new beginning
We can learn, we can teach
We can share the myths the dream the prayer
The notion that we can do better
Change our lives and paths
Create a new world
The whole world’s broke and it ain’t worth fixing
It’s time to start all over, make a new beginning
There’s too much fighting, too little understanding
It’s time to stop and start all over
Make a new beginning
We need to make new symbols
Make new signs
Make a new language
With these we’ll define the world
Teeth by Lady Gaga
I think this cover of The Climb is stunning. I realize my street cred meter just broke but the words are pertinent and when I was running and feeling ugh it made me want to keep going and prove the world wrong.
THE CLIMB by Kelly Clarkson with Jill and Kate (her backup singers).
This blog has been a huge salvation for me during my recent transition period. I loved every minute of creating blog posts and intend to keep on posting in the same manner as always.
After all and in appropriate fashion, this is just the beginning of Luella says.
Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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